Emotion Ocean

I’ve been sitting in my new Apartment for about two months now. Learning how to be alone yet again.

To be honest, I’m quite enjoying my own company, for the most part, its when the waves of emotion start rolling in that I waiver.

This is the second time in my life starting over but this time I am starting over from complete scratch.

Do you remember the first time you moved out and had nothing? Not even a can-opener?  Oh and a big thank you to my friend Lisa for lending me hers from her trailer lol… that’s a story for another time.

So this is me, at 51 years old, beginning again. Learning again how to navigate the ocean of emotions that I have, that directly relate to the situation I have gotten myself in.

The emotions I have been working with flow from Abandonment to Opportunity and everything in between. Believe me, when I tell you that the stick man in my head (Karl) wants to play an EPIC game of blame and fighting with him right now is exhausting.

It takes a lot of navigating and energy to get Karl to come around to my side of the game which is pretty much only to reach for a better feeling a better emotion than what is currently spinning in my head. Some days the only way to shut down the momentum is to actually go to sleep and completely reset.

I’m human after all, and when something tragic hits me in the face, I tend to react just like most humans. The thing that is different this time is that I have the power to recognize my emotional state and in that, I can identify what it is and really know what to expect of myself in it all. This does not mean I always react the way I would like to show up because sometimes the hurt is stronger and moves faster than my mind. When that happens we see it, acknowledge it and pick up and carry on.

So what is my point here?  

I guess that we are all human and we all find ourselves in situations that cause an epic stir within not only our emotions but in several facets of our lives. WE ALL react in one way or another and we ALL move in one direction or another, the key I’ve found for me is taking a Pause, no matter how long it might be,  to allow the waves to come in and to really examine them, letting what is no longer serving me roll back out with the tide.

If you are being beaten by the waves of emotion that are crashing up against you, I invite you to reach out and book an intuitive coaching session with me and gain some insight on how to navigate the waves.